i sms him.. but he didnt reply.. just asked bout the phone stuff.. he told me he wont ignore me.. never.. accept there's a problem or reason there...

i feel so lonely.. these days, i live without him.. i struggle a lot.. but i noe tat's the best way for both of us.. there are still  a lot of things tat i was trying to tell him.. but i think i shouldn't be so selfish.. love is always forgiving n never selfish..

i dreamed bout him yestersday.. really hope the time will return back to the first time we met.. it was the greatest n wonderful memories in my entire life..

we had gone through a lot of problems..hardships.. tough stuff... and hurts but, it isn't the worst thing in our love story.. it can softens n strengthens the heart.. the worst thing is to close yourself off to love....

the biggest problem we faced was my parents..  nowadays, teenagers are always face the same kind of problem.. and im one of them.. he sacrifice his time and energy for me.. and even couldn't sleep well at night.. do u noe tat my heart was painful n hurtful?

i cried for these few days.. i just couldn't accept the fact! y would god let us meet but don let us to be together??!

i ll wait... i ll wait when the time is right.. patiently.. i wanna find him again.. miss him everyday n night.. whenever i thought of the days we had.. i ll smile.. he turned my world to a colourful life.. full of musics, love, happiness... love needs commitment, to grow in search of happiness n life's fulfilment together.. and love is all about trustes.. i had tried to tell him wat's all in my heart last time.. but i ll keep some secrets in my heart.. just don wan him to be sad, and i ll keep all the sadness for myself.. i wan him to be happy.. but he told me tat he cant, and he felt so sorry.. was disappointed wit his answer.. and i noe it's all my fault, i brought him all the sadness.. so i failed..

now, he just wan me to get seven a's for my pmr.. i promised i ll try my best on the exam.. i ll keep study n study.. very hard.. tat's all i can do now.. love is constant journey to understand wat each other need.. and tat's wat he did.. im so grateful.. n thankful.. thank you for everything.. love u.. my dearest hunny..eric

                                                                             ur love, tessie..

i almost cry while i was writing this.. i have a lot more to write.. but i think i better stop now.. tears running out..        

Because of u, i love little more, Because of u, i take time to give an extra smile. Because of you, now, I can help or listen more. Because of you, today, i am me.